Memorial Day

The following is a fictionalized version of an actual event as told to me by my cousin Phil Kimes.

I walked into the unemployment office and stomped the snow off my boots. The waiting area, a collection of dull orange chairs, was empty. Next to an ash tray, a magazine cover proclaimed “Massacre at My Lai.”

The guy behind the counter was about my dad’s age, graying, with black-framed glasses. I used to play ball with his son, Randy.  “Hello, Mr. Shane!” We shook hands.

“Back from Vietnam, are you, Phil?”

“Yes, sir. The Navy let me out a couple months early. I’m looking for a job.”

“Well, you’ve come to the right place. We’ll get you fixed up. Your folks gettin’ along OK?”

I caught him up on my family as I filled out the forms and handed them back. He checked them, then he looked around. “Listen, you’ve got a few minutes, don’t you?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Come on back here and have some coffee.” He nodded to his assistant, and we walked back to his office.

 “I drink too much of this stuff,” he laughed, handing me a cup and warming up his own. “Started when I was about your age.” His wooden chair creaked as he settled in and paused, looking out the window at gray Indiana skies. The hot Styrofoam cup felt good in my hands.

“I served with your Uncle Bobby in the war, Phil.” He paused again. “I’m one of the last men who saw him alive.”

I leaned forward a little. Uncle Bobby had died in World War II.

“We were Bravo Company, First Battalion, Sixth Marines,” he said. “We’d spent 6 months in Hawaii training and gearing up. The end of May they shipped us out to the Mariana Islands. We were going to some damned place we’d never heard of called Saipan.

“They’d been bombing the island for two days before we got there, but it hadn’t done much good. The Japs knew the island, knew where to hide in the caves. They were waitin’ for us.

“I remember the sun beating down as we left the ship in the landing craft. We were 18, 19 years old, scared as hell. The enemy had dug in on the bluffs above the beach, and their snipers were hittin’ us as we came in. We waded through the water, and then we ran. All around us men were layin’ in sand, some screaming for help. We had to get to cover.”

His jaw tightened for a moment.

“We got ashore and somehow secured the beachhead. That night the Japs sent in tanks to try and take it back. They just kept coming and coming. We fought ‘em off. Next morning we heard they counted 44 tanks. Forty-four! Made us wonder what else they had.

“Years later we found out that our intel was bad. There was probably twice as many Japs on the island as they thought. But we were there, and our orders were to take the island.

“The captain sent us all north, and it was fierce fighting every step of the way. Me and my buddies – Joe and Pete and your uncle Bobby – we were hiding behind rocks and trees – fire and move, fire and move.”

He looked out the window a minute, cleared his throat.

“And then there was a break. We heard ‘em runnin’, and we reloaded. And then the sergeant yelled, ‘Let’s go!’ and we moved out.

“Well, the bastards had regrouped. We came around a corner, and there was a nest of ‘em. We were outnumbered 3 to 1. Maybe more. We dug in behind a log and laid down fire, it was all we could do. We couldn’t see anything to aim at – we were firing blind and hoping. The rest of the guys in the squad were scattered. We could hear ‘em yelling all around us.

“The sergeant told us to fall back, but we couldn’t move. They had us. And we were gettin’ low on ammo. We looked at each other, and we knew.

“And then your Uncle Bobby …” he paused. “‘Gimme what ya got,’ he said. ‘I’m gonna draw their fire. You get out of here.’

“’No, you don’t have to do this,’ I told him.

“Pete blurted, ‘Bobby, we ain’t leavin’ you here.’

“But Bobby had made up his mind. ‘Look, we’re not all gettin’ out of this,’ he said. ‘I’ll draw their fire. You guys are married, and I’m not. You get home, you kiss your wife once for me. Now give it!’”

“We laid what we had left on the ground: two grenades and a couple of clips.

“‘All right,’ he said evenly. ‘Now get ready.’

“We found his body a couple days later. He’d tossed both grenades, and he only had half a clip left. He’d been hit at least 50 times. Me and Pete and Joe found a spot under a tree, a place that looked kinda peaceful, you know, and we buried him there.”

He stared out the window a long moment. “We’re hearing things about Vietnam that are hard to understand. This Agent Orange thing. Hearing a lot about soldiers and drugs. Things happen in war, and you carry it with you. But you still have to live your life.

“’Cause, son, I’m here today because of your uncle Bobby. We lost a good man on Saipan that day. Let’s talk about what kind of job you’re looking for. You’re not leaving here until we’ve found you what you want.”

Nature reclaims its own

The news media have reported on the environmental impact of the quarantine. Clean skies over Los Angeles. Goats wandering on the streets of a village in Wales. Nature reclaiming its own.

Close-up of a young wild rabbit in a green field.

So when I saw a young bunny nibbling on the grass in my neighbor’s yard, I chalked it up to that. We have lots of squirrels and the occasional opossum, but not rabbits. Maybe this was a local example of what was happening globally. Isn’t nature wonderful?

This morning the neighborhood feral cat dropped the bunny, still twitching, in the middle of my back yard. Eventually it lay still. I went to the kitchen to make some tea, and as I write this, both the cat and I are having breakfast.

Later on, I’ll take a shovel to whatever is left behind. It has been a good spring for cardinals and robins – I’d rather not have crows or hawks dropping by.

As Emily Dickinson once observed, “Nature, like us, is sometimes caught / Without her diadem.”

Navigation by Landmark

Some people navigate with precise instructions. “Go north on Central Avenue to 30th Street. Turn left. Go three blocks, and the office will be on your right.”

Other people navigate by landmark. “Take this street up to the stoplight. Turn left. Turn right just past the big maple tree, and the office will be there.”

When I was learning to drive, I was the despair of my precise father. “You can’t drive by landmarks,” he would say. “What will you do when the big maple tree isn’t there any more?”

I was rather smug when, years later, I was able to get around by noticing the daylilies or remembering where the farmer’s silo used to be.

But today I learned the lesson Daddy tried to teach me all those years ago. I was delivering food to a trailer court that doesn’t show up on Google Maps. Megan said, “Go out past the old campground and there’s a barn that they converted into a church, but I don’t know if it’s still a church. Turn right. You’ll see it.”

Signpost indicating the intersection of SR 121 and CR 175S

Just past the old campground the highway curves to the right, and I was past the intersection – didn’t even see the intersection – before I saw the steeple on the converted barn. I figured my turn was up ahead. I drove in circles for 15 minutes until, approaching from the south instead of from the north, I found the right road.

If Megan had said, “Turn right on 175 South,” I would have found it right away.

Somewhere in heaven, my dad is laughing.